I realized something today, (or maybe I knew it all along but was in denial.) I have a fear of endings. Let me explain I recently finished watching a Korean drama that I had watched almost 2 years ago but never saw the last episode. (I'm not going to say what drama because I feel like it'll be a spoiler.) The reason being that I was scared of the ending. I know it seems irrational but I want a happy ending or at least some sort of happily ever after. I've even dropped awesome books just because I was scared of how it would end.
I hate that feeling I get when I finish a book with a sad ending because it leaves me feeling empty and depressed hence the fear. I know you're supposed to be feeling all these emotions after reading a book because then that means it was a good book. But you see I'm different I tend to drop the book or series ( and Asian drama) if I feel that its not going to be an HEA and I don't want to be like that. I wanna be able to finish it and feel accomplished and say ha the ending was depressing but its alright I'm okay.
For example, I read the first 2 books of a series but the last book I completely dropped it, I read spoilers and tidbits which I probably shouldn't have done but I do that a lot and the ending was just what I feared. Don't get me wrong the books I read don't have to be full of rainbows and unicorns, I do read horror or gothic books too but I want to be prepared for the worst not just have a tragic ending thrown at me. Sometimes I blame myself though because how could I not see that it wasn't going to be a happy ending.
Sorry if this doesn't make much sense but I felt like I needed to do this. Am I the only one? Does anyone else feel this way or do you fear something else? Comment below!
You'd make me so happy. ; )